12. Violence Within the Violin
V1:
its hard to admit but I've got issues that are irking me/
but first heres some perspective of my life out here on Mercury/
my main supporters aint from Dopeboyz or Rapzilla/
'cause my raps are more Macklemore than Mineo and Mac Miller/
and thats not a co-sign for Mack or diss to Min and Miller both/
its more about the social aspect in my rap as an approach/
I found I had a passion for the broken and it stuck with me/
not coming out through rapping for me just wasn't a luxury/
words formed, I wrote songs and felt the Lord was honored/
but he didn't bless it how I expected that had me ponder/
so I figured, "I guess the world aint ready yet"/
but when they start asking for Human Trafficking raps Im here already set/
next thing you know Im seeing all these songs and poems/
most the artists weren't established, but a few of them I know 'em/
and ya'll get recognition now for knowing?/
man I wrote those bars years ago, this must be how it feels for Leonard Cohen/
a San Diego visionary like Im Dannu/
my platform wasn't large enough I started acting brand new/
and honestly in hindsight, I really think the fam knew/
a Dream Junkie showed me his poem and I tried to ban Ru/
from spitting that Trafficking piece that he created/
like I had a monopoly on everything justice related/
I tasted and started to smell the fumes of that bitterness/
I was consumed by my bitterness/
the sooner I admitted it, the sooner I could fly again/
it shot me to my core I really considered retiring/
you can hear the violence within the violin/
another rapper falling victim to entitlement/
HOOK:
Shameful when i'm looking back, painful from the memory/
confusion it was sent to be my enemy (20/20)/
shameful when I'm looking back, painful from the memory/
community was sent to be my centerpiece (20/20)/
it never bothered me the growth of awareness/
why was I bothered when they spoke I'm embarrassed (20/20)/
I never minded if other people said it/
in hindsight I was blinded because I wasnt getting any credit/
V2:
so there I was forced to step back and view myself/
I hated what I saw I can believe I'd loose myself/
in 2008 for me was the start of it/
educated myself on the issue and grew a heart for it/
that same year, I put my art to it/
and wrote, "On Behalf of the Silenced" I just wanted to play my part in it/
nothing was more important than building the movement/
and perfect timing 'cause that time my rhyming skills were improving/
and I can honestly say, the mission never left essential/
but that full time rapper grind is a killer when the rents due/
it adds a certain pressure that music was never meant to/
so without the bills this might've been something I never went through/
but no more excuses, I'm done with the scapegoats/
how dare I complain, my little place has got a gate code/
my heart crossed hand on a bible I'll say I'm grateful/
but its hard to show the darkest parts of me because I hate those/
do you know how much it makes me boil/
when they progress the cause and I respond as if un-joyful/
do you know how hard it is to admit/
that you've let your ego in but you pretend it don't exist/
well im done with it I'm free from it/
look back and I see from it/
learn now how to flee from it/
may he summit and me plummet/
no more of "me" homie we've done it/
shout to every artist out who's ever reaped from it/
I celebrate your work we've got the same assignment/
in the same gang, same goal, maybe different environment/
I embrace the violence within the violin/
never again will be a victim of entitlement/
HOOK:
Shameful when i'm looking back, painful from the memory/
confusion it was sent to be my enemy (20/20)/
shameful when I'm looking back, painful from the memory/
community was sent to be my centerpiece (20/20)/
it never bothered me the growth of awareness/
why was I bothered when they spoke I'm embarrassed (20/20)/
I think I minded that your way was accepted/
my hindsight has given new life and some proper perspective/
credits
from Socially Just,
released November 13, 2015
Produced by DJ Rek
supported by 5 fans who also own “Violence Within the Violin”
I’ve been rockin Ozay Moore’s music since Lightheaded and I still find it some of the best to listen to. I can’t get enough boom nap, especially with a central theme of Christ and his faithfulness in the life of Ozay Moore. It also features some dope artists on this one. The intro is one of the best introductions to an album I’ve heard, and I don’t say that lightly. Each track is its own thing, yet blending well together. It’s overall just dope! Macklyn